Looking Outside from the glass windows of my office turning my face away from my workstation , I see the sky has suddenly turned dark , though i cant feel it , but i can sense the cold wind that makes the trees bend , and then suddenly with much fanfare the drops of water fall..yes its raining and its what they call awesome weather outside..but then how so ever much i may wish I cannot go outside and enjoy the rain , and I feel helpless..
But this feeling isn't new to me , since the time my brain started forming memories , I remember feeling the same always, just the reasons were different..
When I was a school going kid , and the weather would turn beautiful , which at that point of time meant the "Best weather to play/To get Wet" , it was always exam time (I guess god deliberately makes march and april the best months of the year) and going out meant a week long course of coldarins and paracetmols , then I would think let this school thing get over then I would enjoy the rain.
As I grew up , the same weather became romantic weather , and i would dream of enjoying it with my would be sweetheart , long walks , rides on the bike..
As years flew by , the same weather meant "Not going to the Office/Don't feel like working weather" ,and somehow I would try to pass my day in the office , in a hope that I would enjoy in the evening.
But today as I write this , I have come in peace with the helpless feeling of not wanting to be where I am and just being somewhere else to enjoy the weather, the feeling of missing the opportunity to enjoy , I have realized no matter what I may want some things are not in my control and I should make the best of whatever the present is..
Whether I will one day be able to enjoy this Weather , is a question that still remains unanswered..
But this feeling isn't new to me , since the time my brain started forming memories , I remember feeling the same always, just the reasons were different..
When I was a school going kid , and the weather would turn beautiful , which at that point of time meant the "Best weather to play/To get Wet" , it was always exam time (I guess god deliberately makes march and april the best months of the year) and going out meant a week long course of coldarins and paracetmols , then I would think let this school thing get over then I would enjoy the rain.
As I grew up , the same weather became romantic weather , and i would dream of enjoying it with my would be sweetheart , long walks , rides on the bike..
As years flew by , the same weather meant "Not going to the Office/Don't feel like working weather" ,and somehow I would try to pass my day in the office , in a hope that I would enjoy in the evening.
But today as I write this , I have come in peace with the helpless feeling of not wanting to be where I am and just being somewhere else to enjoy the weather, the feeling of missing the opportunity to enjoy , I have realized no matter what I may want some things are not in my control and I should make the best of whatever the present is..
Whether I will one day be able to enjoy this Weather , is a question that still remains unanswered..
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